White canvas is easy to walk by and go unseen, but when there are colors and strokes of design attached, it's hard not to look. I feel like a white canvas right now in my love life. I'm very colorful in my new world of college adventures, but not feeling too pretty at home. Is it ever ridiculous to expect time together after a long day? Or, is it just assumed that all men would prefer a television and beer? I would like to consider myself a different canvas, one that doesn't harp on your nor make you feel unwelcome. At times I can be moody and not want to be empathetic, but I make up for it when I'm not. Why do I feel ignored after being a genuinely amazing girlfriend on his birthday, for going above and beyond to get him something he never for-saw coming? I want to be applauded for it and thanked, but I just feel like a gift can never make someone see how much you care. It was practically my engagement ring to him.
I understand work is hard and he has a whole deal of pressure on him, but he needs to take a break and come home without having to think about yet again at home. Communication begins to dwindle when couples don't talk and well, we've had a lack of talking. I don't want to act like I'm being unsupportive of him working extremely hard, but I also don't want to feel ignored, nor sacrificed for his choices of how and when to do work.
I am not a white canvas, plain without texture, but I feel a little lopsided right now.
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